Update

Hello everyone!! I am still alive and doing really well! I have finally adjusted to Army wife life, aka a lot of silence and hoping for a break in the silence. I finally received all the info I needed to get my ID, it was wrong. So I had to fax my social and it is in the process of getting corrected. It could take a couple of weeks so I will be lucky if it is finished by the time I go to pick KS up. I want to give you all a big thank you! I can feel your prayers working in my life daily. My spirits have been so high since Thanksgiving (I got a 20min phone call, but more on that later). This is without a shadow of a doubt the life I was meant to live, and I am so excited to live it! I haven't received any letters yet but I know I have at least two on the way. Hopefully I have more than that coming!! Unfortunately I did not hear from him his past Sunday, but its okay no news is good news in my book. At least I know that if he doesn't call all is well and he is busy training to protect his country and family.

Thanksgiving was wonderful. The kids and I woke up and layed around watching the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade all morning and then the best thing happened, at 12:15 my phone rang. It was KS! We spent the next 20 minutes talking and catching up on everything that has been going on these past couple of weeks. I am thrilled to announce that he is really enjoying himself. He said the Victory Tower was "interesting" and coming from someone who is not all that keen on heights I was just glad that he didn't hate it. I know it will help him to overcome that fear and make him a stronger man. After his phone call the kids and I headed over to my grandparents for a wonderful meal. I can say this my family waits like a big dog waits on a little dog to eat. Everyone had already got their plates by the time the kids and I got there, but I didn't care. I told them I had better things to do than eat, I was talking to my hubby! They all agreed and then drilled me about how he was doing. They are all so happy that he is enjoying himself.

The kids have been out of school since Tuesday at noon so it was bittersweet taking them back to school today. I do miss them when they are away, but Cayleigh-Grace and I got to spend a wonderful morning with my parents going grocery shopping at Walmart. It isn't very often that I actually get to spend time with my parents minus my sisters or the boys so it was a wonderful treat. Plus Daddy bought steamed shrimp to snack on on the way home, yum!

I hope everyone had a wonderful and blessed Thanksgiving holiday!

A Happy Thanksgiving to You!

To start off this post I would like to wish you all a happy and blessed Thanksgiving. May God be with you this year as you travel with your families.

Thanksgiving this year holds a new meaning in my heart. With my husband leaving to go follow his dreams I have truly found out who my friends are and who they weren't, and for those of you who have stood by me during the pretty and the ugly phases I have gone through the past few months leading up to him going to BCT and now during these past few days I thank you. From the bottom of my heart I thank you for standing beside me and making me know that I am not alone. I love you all and your support has helped me immensely.

I am so thankful for my amazing husband who has been in my life for almost 9 years now and whom I have been married to for the past almost 7 years. KS you are my soul mate and my other half and I could not be any more proud of you than I am right now. Thank you for wanting to defend your country, thank you for looking at the bigger picture and wanting to do a job that you can not only be proud of and support your family but also that you can make a difference with.

I am thankful for my children. For Kiale and his unexpected appearance in this world during my senior year of high school (when I got pregnant). God puts us all on this Earth for a reason and it might not be the most convenient time but it is all on his time. For Colin, my husbands little buddy. You are so sensitive and caring and you spread joy wherever you go, and for my Cayleigh-Grace. My little burst of pink amongst our sea of blue. I cannot wait to see what the three of you do in this world, you all have already done so much in my heart.

And to my family, Thank You. Thank you for being my rock and my hard place to come to when all of the world seems so shaky and weak.

I am also so thankful for all of my new friends and family I have met through our journey into the "Army Life." You girls have provided me with a wealth of knowledge and support, I fear that without you all I would have been lost. Thank you girls.

Thank you Lord for all that you have given me, I am truly blessed.

Have a wonderful Thanksgiving everyone!

Feeling Good!

Oh, I have a renewed since of energy and spirit today, God sent me an emotional pick-me-up last night in the form of a picture!! That is right everyone there is my man!! His battalion posted pictures from their activities yesterday at the Victory Tower. This is exactly what I needed. I bet he was having a blast!! He was really looking forward to all of the new experiences he would have going through BCT and I am sure this is just the beginning of a hard but good few weeks for him. I think I am going to have him take me rock climbing after this if we get stationed near the mountains, since he obviously already knows how to propel down walls now!! I am still so thrilled and excited that I was lucky enough to see a picture of him, I think I can definitely make it through these next few weeks now!

On a side note, man does he look HOT in his ACUs!!! ;) Gotta love a man in uniform!

A Hangover minus the drinking...

This is what I have felt like for most of the day today... I have had a headache and felt physically and mentally exhausted all day. Having that meltdown last night really took a lot out of me, but I knew it was coming. I hadn't even really had a good cry since Kiale left so I wasn't surprised when once I started crying last night I couldn't stop. Hopefully I got it all out of my system last night although I have still been very quick to cry all day today, hopefully it wont last too long. Colin had his fall festival at school today and as soon as I walked though the doors and saw all the kids playing and parents watching I immediately teared up again and it took me a couple of minutes to get the strength and composure to go find him and enjoy the morning. The thing is Kiale wouldn't have come to that anyway but that fact that the option of coming and enjoying simple things like school activities is out of the question is hard to deal with. I do know that with time it will all get easier, but in the in between time sure is hard to deal with...

Tears & Prayer

Tonight has been a terrible horrible no good very bad night! Everything finally hit me tonight and I have been nothing short of a blubbering mess of tears and snot... but hopefully I have got it all out of my system and I can go on just looking forward to picking him up in a few weeks... it was bound to hit me eventually and I am so glad it hit me here at home rather than out in public. I would rather be a puddle of tears on my bed than a puddle of tears in a store or something... I have a feeling I am going to sleep wonderfully tonight... I am exhausted and KS has a 3 page letter coming his way just from tonight alone. I knew my stone walls would crumble, now I get to rebuild them and hope they stay.

Lord, give me the strength to get though this and everything else that this new life will bring our family. I know this is the direction you want us to go, I have complete faith in this decision and that this is your will, just give me a little more light... Amen