Life

I must say that life here is really nice and is so much like being back home. The weather and the small town feel are all the same the only thing missing is my big family. Being 12 hours away and today's gas prices doesn't really make going back home to visit an option so I am embracing this new home away from home. I will be honest though the homesickness is starting to sink in, especially when KS isn't able to come home everyday. The days he is gone make it even harder on me. I am used to having some sort of relief with the kids, especially Dixie and Dylan, they were always over at the house keeping me company when KS was away now it is just silence... well as much silence as a house filled with a 6 and a half year old, a 5 year old and a soon to be 19 month old can be. This lifestyle is exactly what we wanted for our children, well minus the frequent single parenting part but that comes with the territory. We can walk to school, the grocery store, the gym, even the arts and craft center, and the security living here is wonderful. We truly don't have to worry about anything. Not that we really did worry at home but when you are here you know there are MP's looking out for you there is just a whole new level of safety that you can feel. Like I was telling my Mema the other night this place is so relaxing for me. I can finally just wind down and sit back and enjoy our life. It is so nice to even have that option. I will be posting some pictures of our house tomorrow. With more to come as we put the finishing touches up.

too much

Today my mind has been racing and every time I slow down and just look around it keeps going back to that dark place that every mil-spouse worries about. Deployment. Yea I know I have a while before I have to worry about that word, but after this morning I cannot get it out of my head. You see I was scrolling through the blogs that I missed during my couple of weeks sans internet and I came across this, and my heart broke. It is still breaking and I believe it will continue to break as the days go on until I can push away the fears. Deep down no matter what I tell myself about "yea his MOS doesn't deploy much" or "he will be on the FOB the whole time" blah blah blah.... it still doesn't help the fact that by him signing the line and swearing that oath we could have finalized the date for when he will leave us. Don't get me wrong I will be the first to tell you that I believe 100% when God wants you to come home He will take you, whether you are in the middle of a war zone, sitting on the back of your motorcycle or just playing football in the yard with your kids. When He wants you He will take you and He could care less what you are doing and how dangerous it is, you will go when its your time. But as a mil-spouse I know I can speak for everyone when I say that we think about death a lot more than the average person. It is in our face every day, I am not saying that we know of people dying every day but we do know what our husbands and wives have been and are training to do. We are not stupid or naive yes we signed up for this but it doesn't mean that we are going to turn our backs and just say "Oh well it will never happen to me..." it does happen and it could happen. We can only hope and pray that each and every day that God gives us with our spouses is lived and enjoyed to the fullest. I don't know if I will ever be able to fully let my brain wrap around everything that goes along with a deployment and in knowing myself I know that in a lot of ways it would be best if I didn't think about the full extent of what a deployment means. I realize that I still have quite a while before I even have to worry about a true deployment coming into our near future but ever since August, and even way before that, when KS signed those papers it has always been in the back of my mind. That is the greatest reason why I just moved the kids and I over 1200 miles just to be with KS again. This is a good 6 months + that we will be able to spend and enjoy with him that we will never be able to get back again, and at the end of the day I want to be able to say that I have spent every possible moment I could with my husband b/c we all know that when God is ready to call us home we won't get any second chances for more time with those that we love and cherish. We will have only what He has given us and I want to make sure I have taken full advantage of everything He has given me.

Please head on over to and give her some love and support. I cannot imagine the pain and sorrow that she is feeling right now, but I do know that we can shower upon her as much love and support as we possibly can.... Rest in peace Mr. P.  

Here and Loving it!!

Hi everyone!!! We finally have internet, actually we got it last week but I have been slacking so I am just now getting to blog again. We have been in our home for two weeks now and I love it. I finally got around to getting the majority of our pictures up and thanks to KS we were unpacked within 3 days of us getting the house. I will say this that man is awesome at unpacking and putting things away. Without him I think I would still be unpacking today. Being with KS again and being a whole family is wonderful no doubt about that. The boys are adjusting great and are both in school now. Cayleigh-Grace is same as usual just blossoming into a little girl now, the baby about her is almost gone. The drive over here went wonderfully thanks to my awesome dad who drove for 12 hours two days straight. The dogs even did great. They were in the crate in the back of the truck for the majority of the time. Overall it was a wonderful trip and it has been a wonderful two weeks in our new home.

On the road day 2

Well we finally made it to the state we will be living, now we are just headed to our new home. We still have a long afternoon of driving left before we arrive at our destination. i must say the area we are driving through right now is very pretty and green. I must say there is cattle everywhere and lots of sloping hills. The kids have been very well behaved considering the amount of distance we have covered. We had dinner at the truck stop across from our hotel last night, it was delicious the boys had a hamburger and chicken tenders, i had chicken fried steak and gravy (yum!!!!), and dad had meatloaf and mashed potatoes. Overall it was a very good dinner and the people at the truck-stop where very nice and personable. I cannot believe that tomorrow my baby boy will turn 5 years old and i will be signing the lease on our new house! It will be a wonderful day.

On the road

Well we are on our way out west. The movers and packers where here on Tuesday and Wednesday to pack us up and move us out. I must say this entire process of being moved and moving ourselves has gone remarkably smooth. We were able to arrange for the packers and movers to come to our house with only 7 days notice. Both sets of people were great workers and nice people. The actual movers even bought me lunch on Wednesday. I cannot believe that i am sitting here in my truck blogging from my phone. (please ignore spelling and typos) we have 265 miles left to travel today out of almost 700 miles. We will have another almost 700 miles to go tomorrow as well. So far the kids have done great and my dad has been an awesome driver. Hopefully i will be back to my regular blogging schedule after we get settled in the next week or so. I am so thrilled to have my entire family under one roof again. It has been a very long and yet still short 4 months.
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Almost 5...

My sweet baby boy will be turning 5 in just a few days....

Words of Wisdom Wednesday

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(Graduation from BCT, February 19, 2010)

"Missing someone gets easier everyday because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them, you are one day closer to the next time you will." author unknown

Updates

Hi everyone!! We are all still here and doing great, just extremely busy!! The movers will be here on the 10th to pack us up and move us out, I cannot believe it. The man with the moving company came by today to do the walk through and figure out how many boxes we will need. We have the address for our new home and we will be signing the lease on it on the 15th, which also happens to be Colin's 5th birthday! My Dad is driving with us out west and then I am putting him on a plane back home. I am so thankful he is helping me make the 19+ hour drive out there. I am sure I will have some interesting stories to tell after making that long of a drive with 3 kids and 2 dogs.  We spent 4 full days cleaning out my garage and yard. It looks amazing now, it makes me sad to leave it. The painter was here today painting my bathroom and Cayleigh-Grace's room. She was NOT happy to see her room solid white, I think she already misses her pink and green bedroom. The painters will be back out tomorrow to paint my bedroom and hopefully the boys bedroom. Then all we have left is the baseboards and pressure washing the house.

I will be posting about Family Day and Graduation as soon as things slow down there. We are  having Colin's birthday party this weekend so hopefully I will have time to post about it soon, if not I will do the posts after we get settled.