Once you or your spouse joins the armed forces is their something in your brain that just clicks? With KS leaving in just a few short months I have found myself changing. I find myself looking through different eyes at this world we live in. I see everything through an entirely different perspective now, a better perspective. I don't just see our everyday life anymore as some mundane thing going from this day to the next. I see it as lives with a purpose, lives with a goal that will only be achieved with us standing together and working together as a family.
Our world has gone from the usual 9 to 5 rut that so many people find themselves in to a 9 to 5 where every moment must me enjoyed and appreciated. Everything that goes through my head now gets looked at and processed differently. I am no longer worried about offending people and turning them down for things that would take me away from Kiale and away from having our family as a whole during these short months that he will be with us before he leaves for basic training and then AIT school.
I no longer just "kiss" my husband, when I kiss him now I actually take the time to enjoy it, to savor and remember the feeling of his lips touching mine. I don't even remember the last time I took the time to really feel what he lips feel like touching mine, when your husband is there with you every day there are those things that become routine, so unimportant. They don't change and you loose track of how important they truly are, its those simple things that I will miss the most.
There are so many things that I took for granted before, and now knowing that KS will be leaving in 2.5 months and will only be home maybe (if we are lucky) a total of a month between November of this year and September of next year, I find myself just wanting to savor and hold on to every moment between us.
I no longer just "kiss" my husband, when I kiss him now I actually take the time to enjoy it, to savor and remember the feeling of his lips touching mine. I don't even remember the last time I took the time to really feel what he lips feel like touching mine, when your husband is there with you every day there are those things that become routine, so unimportant. They don't change and you loose track of how important they truly are, its those simple things that I will miss the most.
There are so many things that I took for granted before, and now knowing that KS will be leaving in 2.5 months and will only be home maybe (if we are lucky) a total of a month between November of this year and September of next year, I find myself just wanting to savor and hold on to every moment between us.
2 comments:
beautiful post!
I know exactly how you feel, the last time Beast was in we were so packed with things to do to have fun that we did not spend any alone time together- and beleive me you will miss it when it is gone, you can get through the daytime activities by your self and take care of everything that is what Moms' do best. But at the end of the day, you want someone to hold on to and show you some love. Just be strong and hopefully time will fly by. ;)
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