Dinner...

Man this is getting hard... cooked dinner for the first time since KS left. I had so much food left over... I started crying when I realized I had cooked way too much. Then the boys started talking about Daddy and Colin started crying, then I started crying again... Colin went and got the bear KS made him and played it, as soon as KS's voice started all 3 of us were bawling... This is going to be so hard but I know at the end of this all of us are going to be so much stronger. The boys are writing their letters to Daddy now and I had to tell Kiale that he cannot draw sad faces for Daddy he can only draw happy faces for Daddy b/c Daddy doesn't need to know when we are sad only that we are happy and proud of him. Praise the Lord he gave me strong understanding boys who are able to see and understand concepts far beyond their years.