Tonight has been a terrible horrible no good very bad night! Everything finally hit me tonight and I have been nothing short of a blubbering mess of tears and snot... but hopefully I have got it all out of my system and I can go on just looking forward to picking him up in a few weeks... it was bound to hit me eventually and I am so glad it hit me here at home rather than out in public. I would rather be a puddle of tears on my bed than a puddle of tears in a store or something... I have a feeling I am going to sleep wonderfully tonight... I am exhausted and KS has a 3 page letter coming his way just from tonight alone. I knew my stone walls would crumble, now I get to rebuild them and hope they stay.
Lord, give me the strength to get though this and everything else that this new life will bring our family. I know this is the direction you want us to go, I have complete faith in this decision and that this is your will, just give me a little more light... Amen